Buzzing at the Crossroads

Here I am—standing at a crossroads.

Truth be told, I’ve been buzzing around this crossroads for months now, delighting in all the choices like a bee in a field of freshly bloomed flowers.

Dizzy. A little drunk on possibility.

Covered in the pollen of ideas.

When I was four years old, my teenage siblings and their friends called me Doobie, after a character from the children’s show Romper Room who wore a bee costume. “Because you’re always doing things,” they said.

I’ve always found that reason a little suspect—something about the way adults pass knowing glances when they think kids aren’t paying attention—but either way, the nickname stuck. And maybe that’s why I’ve always loved bees.

I admire them. I’m grateful to them. They feed us, keep us alive, and don’t get enough credit for their relentless, beautiful work.

In the time it took me to write that last sentence, I also dreamed up three different art projects around the concept of bees… and then buzzed right back here to finish my thought. See? Buzz-buzz.

This crossroads I’m at—it’s not the first one in my life. But it is different.

I’ve stood at other forks in the road, buzzing with indecision until one of the paths simply disappeared and the choice was made for me.

I’ve drifted into roles and responsibilities because someone said I’d be good at them.

I’ve let myself be swatted in directions that made sense to others—but didn’t always make sense to me.

This time is different.

This time, I’m choosing. Consciously. Intentionally. Not because someone else told me I should, or because I’ve run out of other options, but because my heart is pulling me in a direction that feels true.

I’m walking the path of art.

I’m a self-directed art student with a long-term vision: to become a working artist, to share my creative journey online, and to build a business that supports my life while hopefully inspiring others to explore their own creativity.

I don’t consider myself an expert... not yet.

But I’m learning every day. I’m growing. I’m creating. And I’m sharing the whole messy, beautiful process in real time.

Eventually, I hope to sell my work regularly. To license my designs. To teach.

But right now, I’m focused on becoming.

I want to discover who I am—beneath the expectations, the titles, the roles—and who my soul has been trying to become all along.

This blog is part of that journey.

If you’re here reading this, welcome. Whether you’re another artist, a creative soul at your own crossroads, or just someone who wandered in from the wild internet—thank you.

I hope my journey makes you feel a little more free to explore your own.

Now if you’ll excuse me, I’ve got some buzzing to do.